I cant do this.

He is just lay there and I can’t do ANYTHING! I feel so useless. I love him. I can’t … WE can’t lose him. We’ll all break. We aren’t as strong as he is! He needs to wake up. He just has to! I can’t even face seeing anyone cause I know I’m not strong enough to put of a front for their sake. I keep randomly breaking and I don’t want people to see that, they don’t need it on top of everything. So I’ll keep it inside and just hope and beg for you to wake up Mike! We need you. Please don’t give in. You’re stronger than anyone I know! Just wake up. Please? <3

I need him …

… but I can’t tell him so.

Relapse ftw :)

So much going on and you don’t even know. She is the ONLY one who noticed I was breaking and all you do is think that. I’m crumbling and you don’t see it.

I’m sorry I’ve been SO distant but I’m not as strong as I thought I was and I can’t say it to your face. You’ll be so disappointed in me and I don’t wanna see that. So I hide.

I’m just … sorry. I love you.

No longer bed ridden

Fucking chest infections ruin EVERYTHING -____-